then why do I feel so melancholy (that's a fancy word for sad), glum, somber???
I refuse, I mean adamantly refuse to believe that I could in any way be affected by...the weather?!? Okay...maybe just a little bit.
Alright, maybe even a LOT!
While driving to the orthodontist this afternoon, Noah and I were having a little conversation. I was expressing to him how I was afraid that I just might not 'make it' through this fall/winter season coming up. I shared with him that I was feeling as though there wasn't any hope. He asked me "hope of what?", of which I responded, "no hope of enjoying sunny warm days". See with the 'less than desirable' summer weather we had this year it feels as though we are headed right back into the 'storm' of fall/winter weather without having a break.
Silly really, if you ask me. That I could have a feeling that the sun wouldn't shine again...after all, "ain't no Sunshine when she's gone!" But seriously, I really do feel this hope-less feeling inside. So, sitting here on this grey Seattle day, with the wind/rain pelting against my window is causing me to be reflective. I totally get the "chemical imbalance, reaction, whatever you call it' that could go with grey after grey after grey days. Yet, there is (I believe) a choice too that must be made on my part that says, "I could fall prey to this grey, BUT I choose not to and instead DO..." I must come up with some small (even seemingly insurmountable) things I can do to "brighten" (so to speak) my mood/feeling/atmosphere. Any suggestions???
Yes, it can will start with being thankful, for there is SO much to be thankful for:
- I'm a new auntie (my new sweet little nephew will be coming home to America soon)
- I have THE BEST husband ever!
- My 3 boys are men to be adored!
- I have been blessed with the sweetest Princess baby girl
- I got a new job (totally giddy about this one - truly a God story to be told...maybe tomorrow)
- I could go on...but I'm going to save it for a rainy day!